Yo,
First of all, here’s a collection of shit over the past year that I’ve started and never finished and never will finish.
skip to the bottom for the tl;dr
It’s been around a year and a half since I created my account, and a little over a year since I made my first post. For a good while, this was my go-to place, something I looked forward to checking after work to see what new stories and pictures people had created. I almost never comment on anything, but I read and viewed just about everything that got posted here.
More importantly for me though, this has been where I’ve learned to draw. I’m incredibly grateful that I found this community - I’m grateful that people were willing to look at my art, leave comments and give me feedback; I still remember how I couldn’t stop smiling after I posted Hook-A-Foal, the first bit of art I’d ever posted online, and everyone was incredibly nice and supportive of it, even though I had no confidence in it at the time. Those kind words and comments are what inspired me to keep going, to keep trying to improve so I could make work that you would enjoy, like I’d enjoyed so much other work on this site. Whether or not I’ve succeeded is up to you individually, but I hope that there’s at least something you’ve enjoyed out of my catalogue. If nothing else, I think I’ve improved handily in my time here.
One year and two months ago:
vs about a month ago:
Now, if the title of the post hasn’t already given it away, you can probably tell where this is going by now; about a month and a half ago, shortly after I posted pages 1-3 of Not Your Bestest, I realised that I just didn’t care anymore. My itch for consuming fluffy content was gone, and so was the itch for creating it. Over the course of about a month I was able to force myself to make page 4, but when I say forced, I mean it; I really didn’t want to work on it. I wanted to work on pretty much anything else.
I’ve been juggling quite a lot from an artistic standpoint recently, and it’s been causing me severe burnout. I’ve been losing the will to do anything, and having so many things on my plate hasn’t been helping, so I’m making the executive decision to cut the thing I least enjoy doing. I don’t feel great about doing it - I’m generally of the belief that when you start a project, you enter into a contract with the people who view it; They gave you their time to look at it, so you owe it to them to finish it. In this case, however, even if I don’t say ‘hey I’m cancelling it’ I’m just not going to ever finish it. At least this way, it’s off my mental stack so I don’t have to worry about it. Either way, the correct thing to do is apologise, so hey, I’m sorry I’m not going to finish this, and I hope you understand my reasoning.
I’d be remiss if I didn’t take this opportunity to thank all the creators here, artists and storytellers, both of whom I’ve taken a great deal of inspiration from. Keep on with the good work, as long as you’re enjoying making it.
Sorry if this has been disjointed and rambling, I’ve just been typing as I go. Thanks again, and this is only a soft goodbye. There’s every chance I’ll get the itch again, and come back and finish Not Your Bestest, just not right now.
td;dr: wah wah I’m a burned out widdle baby wah wah i don’t wanna make fluffy stuff anymore wah wah
I’ll miss you being around. Hopefully the fluffy itch becomes a maddening one again some day