this is turning into a 2am Weird Smut Diary i'm going to bed
these drawings are so unpolished they barely seem worth posting, but i’m going thru old folders & i’ve got smut on the brain. i wanted to open up requests again but i dont think i can. maybe im stressed, maybe im burnt out or lack inspiration or my medication regimen isn’t where it should be i don’t fucking know.
my cat’s in heat & keeps me up all night with her yowling, im behind on basically everything, and i have no dry laundry bc it’s been pouring rain for like a week & im in a pretty piss-poor mood overall. i started listening to sea shanties & drawing pirates & that made me happy tho ig
((i know that talking to people would make me feel better but my dumb shit brain is like “yeah but what if they were lying when they said they liked hearing from you” and im like “shut the fuck up you wet flesh walnut”))
I’ve announced that I’m taking a break from posting for a while and I think it would also do you some good if you were to take a breather.
Please take care of yourself first, fluffy porn second.
There are some helpful tips on the internet that could help you calm your cats urges.
I’ve read once that massages near the tailbone help but idk.
You could hang some of your laundry over doors if you have any. We do that at home all the time.
Also, drying underwear & socks with a hairdryer or fan can also work.
I had the same problem a couple of years back and sometimes still do.
A good way to solve that problem is to fight the bad feelings agressively and telling yourself (aloud) what you know to be true.
My brother said it best, you have to convince your brain that the things you want it to think are true even if you don’t believe it at first.
Over time you can condition your brain to think what you want it to but it takes a loooooooong time.
And my psychiatrist told me that if I ever notice I’m getting stuck in a mental loop I should take charge over my thoughts by commanding them to stop, multiple times if I have to until they really stop.
This also takes time to work but it gets easier each time you succeed.
That said, I wish you the best and hope your situation gets better as soon as possible.
